I cannot wait. I think about it constantly. I took another pregnancy test on Sunday just to be sure. I still can't believe it sometimes. We've gotten a bunch of books to read and I read them everyday. Even Mr. DF has one that he is reading. I think he's given me some sort of advice on what I should be doing or eating every day this week. We're both just so excited.
A couple of our patients have kinda caught on, one by my boss clearly telling her! Grrr. I am trying to be optimistic and hopeful that nothing will go wrong so I'm trying not to let them knowing scare me. I really didn't want anyone other than family and close friends to know until the end of the first trimester, but it is what it is now. One of the things that infertility does is scare you from being totally sure. With all the research I've done about infertility, I've read about all the bad stuff afterwards too.
Infertility doesn't just go away when you find out your pregnant. I still think about our journey and struggles every day and I worry that all this happiness will be taken away from us.
I'm trying to just focus on the best though! It's all I can really do :)
amen!!! keep thinking positive!
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