Sunday, May 22, 2011

BFN :(

Well IUI #1 didn't work. I didn't sleep at all last night and I had two dreams about getting negative tests. When I finally had the nerve to get up and test, I still let myself believe that it might have worked. I took two different tests, different brands, and both screamed negative. Knife to the heart. I lost it in the bathroom...then came to tell Mr. DF and lost it some more.
So here goes another $1,500 or so, another round of meds, and another 2ww from hell. I don't want to necessarily do it, but I will. Let me take that back, I want to do it, I'm just not looking forward to it.  On the upside, we have Maui in 6 days and I'll be able to enjoy sushi and alcoholic tropical drinks.
Today, I am going to let myself cry. Tomorrow, I will pick myself up, dust off my ovaries, and prepare to battle cycle #19 and IUI #2.


  1. I am so sorry! Those BFN are the worst feelings ever. Enjoy Maui!

  2. I'm so sorry :( I'm so glad you have Maui to look forward to though. I hope you and Mr. DF have a great time and are able to relax and enjoy each other!!

  3. sorry to hear - these are the hardest days. I hope you have a chance to enjoy yourself in maui and you find some time to hold onto each other tightly. hang in there :)